After my last entry, I'm not supposed to be alive again, am I?
Uh uh, don't get me wrong. The last post wasn't at all about me. I was just putting myself into someone else's shoes, putting what I think her thoughts and feelings were into words. I have a vague idea of how she must be feeling for the past couple years or so which was finally drawing to a closure just then.
It's heartbreaking to lose someone you've once loved with whom you'd shared a history together and started a family. And with whom you thought you'd grow old together and in whose company you'd enjoy being till the end. But alas it wasn't meant to be. The rug of life beneath your feet was pulled out so abruptly that had caused you to suddenly tumble and knock your head with the sudden realization that forever us is now no more. The one you once knew inside out, upside down and loved with all your heart had unexpectedly betrayed you and had turned into a stranger, remote and removed of all love and compassion for you.
Now a foe, the person had turned against you, pointing out and magnifying whatever weaknesses you have, blaming you and you alone while he keeps on deceiving others and deluding himself of whose greater weaknesses had in the first place caused the once blissful union to crash and spiral downwards into a point of no return.
As heartbreaking as it is to have someone you know going through all this turmoil in her once normal life, I'm also glad for her that at last she's liberated from the tormenting knot that has lost any meaning for her or brought any joy to her life.
I pray that she'll find the strength to proceed with her life. I hope she won't look back but carry on and turn over a new leaf. God willing, she'll find true happiness and everlasting love. Over time the hurt would heal and she'll surely reach the end of the dark tunnel and find the light again. After all the psychological and emotional torment she had had to go through while in the failed relationship, I sincerely hope she'll find real happiness that she truly deserves.